Blood out of Stone

I do believe that it will not change
I do perceive that I am not to blame
All of the remnants that are left inside
Fully function to my own demise
Call me, say I am manic
Installing the erratic
Starving of my inprovement
Stalling of any new movement
Implore me to dissolution
Ignoring
There's no solution
Don't call me so enigmatic
Ignore me
I won't have it

Tension is what has been building
Tension is what I've been feeling
Intervention
Don't know what is needed
Don't know what will stop the bleeding
Attention
Is that worth pursuing?
Apprehension
What am I achieving?
Don't know what will start the healing