I'm Not Okay

[00:00.93] Tonight the monsters in my head
[00:03.61] Are screaming so damn loud
[00:07.77] But I built walls so high
[00:10.39] So they never even make a sound
[00:15.49] It's a mask, it's a lie
[00:17.49] It's the only home I've ever known
[00:22.52] 'Cause being who I really am
[00:25.83] Has only left me more alone
[00:30.38] I am not okay
[00:35.05] And I need you to see it
[00:37.44] I have so much to say
[00:42.70] And no one to hear it
[00:44.89] The reason I keep quiet
[00:46.82] With so much at stake
[00:48.38] I always feel like a burden, let it silence me
[00:52.15] You'll never understand
[00:53.82] Why it's so hard to say
[00:57.51] I'm not okay
[01:01.25]
[01:05.42] I wish I had a scar
[01:06.79] Had a bruise on the surface, any kind of proof
[01:12.77] That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse
[01:19.75] My life's invisible abuse
[01:21.94] I'm either judged or have to hide
[01:26.81] The only symptom you can see
[01:30.25] Is I don't wanna be alive
[01:34.60] I am not okay
[01:39.78] And I need you to see it
[01:42.36] I have so much to say
[01:46.88] And no one to hear it
[01:49.34] The reason I keep quiet
[01:51.38] With so much at stake
[01:53.02] I always feel like a burden, let it silence me
[01:56.85] You'll never understand
[01:58.36] Why it's so hard to say
[02:03.21] I'll never have the words, I can't explain this hell
[02:09.65] But what if it kills me
[02:11.45] If I keep it to myself?
[02:16.73] To myself
[02:21.88] I am not okay
[02:26.24] And I need you to see it
[02:28.70] I have so much to say
[02:33.52] And no one to hear it
[02:36.24] I am not okay
[02:38.08] I am not okay
[02:39.75] I'm never safe
[02:41.63] It's not a phase
[02:43.43] If I finally break
[02:45.08] Would you still stay?
[02:49.35] Tonight the monsters in my head
[02:51.25] Are screaming so damn loud
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