Regret

Feeding my insecurities is something that I do best.
Leaving myself heartless but with an ache in my chest but
I'd throw my life away if it meant fixing this god damn mess.
Just let me confess.
I regret so many mistakes that I've made in my life.
I can't seem to face another sleepless night.
I'm twisting and turning and my bridges need burning.
That's why I write these songs in my head.
To cope with the pain.
To deal with the stress.
I'm pouring my heart out to paper from pen.
I can't hold on to hope like I did back then.
It takes its toll on my body, my soul, my mind.
I wish it never came to this.
The way I feel is so unsettling.
I can feel the hatred in myself again.
All I did was make things worse for us.
I can feel the world crashing down on me.
I regret so many mistakes that I've made in my life.
I can't seem to face another sleepless night.
I'm twisting and turning and my bridges need burning.