Denial You Win Again

A stir grows in my back
As I attempt to untangle my past
I look around my roof for cues
The feeling in my gut continues to grow
Have I had been this mad the whole time?
A chess game in my mind
I look away
Denial you win again
With your convalescing sway
I'll tell all my friends that there is no need for sense
Soaking in the sweetest summer rain
Denial you win again
And I'll happily lose to you friend (I've never been happier)
A stir growing in my chest
There is something wrong
And I can pin point it
I'm not the one I thought I was
I'm sick and distracted
My only pal disavow
It's my move
But
I look away