Internal Suicide

I smile and nod my head, I appear to be a decent man
I move through these different worlds
I pretend to take interest in what you say
Why can't you just vanish or die at my command?

I wish I was given a quota of kills
Internal Suicide

I'm the in in sanity, the ab in normal
I've come to terms with the fact that I am mearly a drop in the dark wide ocean
Insignificant but the ripples I leave are eternal

I wish I was given a quota of kills
Internal Suicide

Everyday I war the face you want me to
I must cage my despise buried deep inside
Everyday I fight to survive yet another day
There is no such thing as compromising

I wish I was given a quota of kills
Internal suicide.