Resignation

Living a life such as mine
Is it living at all?
Pain, sorrow and misery
The only constants I know

In the void of my soul
There is nothing left to give
No emotion to speak of
Isolated from the world

Like a leaf on the wind
Drifting through time...

I can't remember the last time
I shared an honest smile
Or felt the tears roll down my face
I would welcome happiness and sorrow
Just to feel something again
Oh I would love to feel

Deeper I fall into the abyss
Shades of black and gray
Overwhelming emptiness
Hides the light away
You will never again
See the light
Shinning in my eyes

Distant voices echo
Fragments of the past
Fading into nothingness
The hope that will not last
I see it clearly
In their eyes
Oh how they worry

My resignation
To accept my fate
I will resign to live
The life that I create

My judgment
To live within this shell
To live within the confines
Of this mortal hell

They have tried to help me
Make no mistake
All I know is that
For me it is too late

So let me live my life
In my own way
I will live out my days
Until I fade away

Selfish indulgence
A much needed escape
An everlasting journey
Take me far away
Oh I will go there
Willingly
I welcome the change

Emotionless
The darkness which confines
Within this dead void
My empty shell resigns
Trapped in a dark and
Cold abyss
The essence of my life

My resignation
To accept my fate
I will resign to live
The life that I create

My judgment
To live within this shell
To live within the confines
Of this mortal hell

They have tried to help me
Make no mistake
All I know is that
For me it is too late

So let me live my life
In my own way
I will live out my days
Until I fade away