songs i couldn't write

Thought about anything and anyone
To distract myself from you
Fake love somebody I don't care about
Just to think of someone new
Obsessed about what's next
So I didn't feel a thing
Hurt some people, you hurt me, god, it's a cycle I repeat
I think I missed out on the songs I couldn't write
'Cause it'd be too hard to
I really thought I'd lose my mind
It's like, what about you?
I couldn't let me feel it at all
'Cause I knew if I did, I'd be breaking my heart
Now I'm singing songs I couldn't write
'Cause I think I have to
It's kinda funny, you can think that you're moving on
When you're going 10 steps back
Really thought I did my best
I know better now that you can't run from the past
Couldn't feel, didn't heal, but I guess I
Learned my lesson, it's true
It'll catch up to you, you
But I think I missed out on the songs I couldn't write
'Cause it'd be too hard to
I really thought I'd lose my mind
If I thought about you
I couldn't let me feel it all
'Cause I knew if I did, I'd be breaking my heart
Now I'm singing songs I couldn't write
'Cause I think I have to
I think I have to