The In Between

[00:00.57] (I'm not mad at her, I just want her to not hurt herself)
[00:04.82] (Which is what she's doing)
[00:06.62] I'm in over my head
[00:09.74] At the point where I'm starting to dread your calls
[00:13.06] And I know what comes next
[00:16.78] The part where I convince you that you're better off
[00:19.49] Won't respond, shrug you off, look away
[00:22.78] I'm pulling back as you fall for me
[00:26.02] Raise my guard, put my heart in a cage
[00:29.02] Locking you out, but I don't wanna be
[00:32.38] Oh this habit, I-I should fix it
[00:35.18] I always mess things up I admit it
[00:38.40] I'm not the girl that you think you want and
[00:41.60] You'd hate me too, if I was ever honest
[00:44.76] I got used to the secrecy
[00:47.93] It's safer in the in between
[00:51.36] I liked it 'til you wanted me
[00:54.32] I'm safer in the in between
[01:01.25] Madi says I'm just stressed
[01:04.56] And my head's too clouded to be smart right now
[01:08.08] So if I had to guess
[01:11.07] By spring I'll realize she was right and hate myself
[01:14.46] Sabotage something good out of fear
[01:17.37] I know you'll show up in painful dreams
[01:20.66] Want you back once you're no longer here
[01:23.82] Born with a talent to ruin things
[01:26.91] Oh this habit, I-I should fix it
[01:29.85] I always mess things up I admit it
[01:32.94] I'm not the girl that you think you want and
[01:36.48] You'd hate me too if I was ever honest
[01:39.75] I got used to the secrecy
[01:42.69] It's safer in the in between
[01:45.92] I liked it 'til you wanted me
[01:49.18] I'm safer in the in between
[02:02.13] (I do want you to be happy)
[02:04.58] Oh, i'm so selfish, punish myself with
[02:07.95] The soul crushing knowledge, I willingly lost it
[02:10.94] Know I'll regret it and die just a little
[02:14.37] It's what I do best, sitting right in the middle
[02:18.57] Oh this habit, I should fix it
[02:21.66] Always mess things up I admit it
[02:25.06] Not the girl that you think you want and
[02:28.17] You'd hate me too if, I was ever honest
[02:33.05] Oh this habit, I-I should fix it
[02:35.96] I always mess things up I admit it
[02:39.13] I'm not the girl that you think you want and
[02:42.39] You'd hate me too, if I was ever honest
[02:45.73] I got used to the secrecy
[02:48.95] Was thrown off by your honesty
[02:52.04] You're not ashamed in wanting me
[02:55.18] I can't trust what I've never seen
[02:58.53] My nervous heart is taunting me
[03:01.72] I'm slowly starting to believe
[03:05.04] It's cold and dark and lonely
[03:08.20] I hate it in the in between
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