The Ballroom

I trip through you yesterday
I slip this one away
I spent my summer only getting high
Every year's the same
I rebel in my shame
I'm wishing we never said goodbye
And i know
You're an weirdo kid
And no, oh look at what you did to me
And i can't trust my feelings
They will deceive
I am malfunctioning
It's safer if you go
So we'll never know
Come down from your pedestal
I am not in full control
You can have my filthy soul
Is that enough to pay your toll?
Everything i am is wrong
I'm not where i belong
As soon i open portal to my own kind
But i'm in love with everything you are
I'm a worm you're a star
But tomorrow i will surely change my mind
And i know i'm a weirdo kid
And oh, oh look at what i did to me
And i don't blame you
I have trouble living with me too
I will lose everyone eventually
And including me
Why don't you just release me
I worship in my self pitty
Come down from your pedestal
I am not in full control
So i light my brightest fire
I drop just one or two
I burn through my desire
To where there is no me and you
Wow
I was dreaming?
Or i was dead?
I was in a ballroom
I've never seen such shades of red
In the center on a rug there was a bed
From within it's sheet and pillows black and red
I was changing as i floated to the blankets that were dripping goo
And everyone i ever knew was there
And animals with humans hands
I spoke and thanks from ancient lands
Selected those to strip, and bite and tear
And all the people set for doom
The beasts would fuck and then consume
As i lay in the blackness of the sheets
The suffering was sweet compared to all the pain that one must bear
In life, when we would rot in bags of meat
I was an abomination
I wasn't a man anymore
I was the darkness
I was alone
And i alone was the whore
It was magnificent
And i only consumed
I am the bride
I am the groomed
This is my party here in the ballroom
This is my party here in the ballroom
This is my party here in the ballroom