Write Me Letters

on the fridge there's a card this girl wrote
to my roommates thanking them for
coming to her birthday party
I am sad
I wished that I had friends like that
someone to play frisbee most days
someone to take me to the MOA
shakira baby
how i wished you cared about me
how I wished you cared how I feel
how i wished you knew i was real
How I wished a person like you
could Iike a person like me
its the reason I hide
i'm always inside
afraid that nobody will think I'm special
write me letters
ink on paper
i'm so mixed up I could cry
what's your secret? I can keep it
I can keep it til I die
I'm not happy
i'm just worried
things don't ever turn out right
won't you help me?
write me letters
write me letters in the sky
recently,
i got paid to scan my brain
and paid to answer personal questions
like do I think I am a worthless person?
I talk too much
but I was glad that someone asked
told them that i'd like to disappear now
and have nobody know i was here
I know that's not what I was taught
i hope that someday its not something that I want
but as for the moment I just want to be absent