Never Called Her Baby

By the way you're in my head
Every hour till I'm back in bed
I wonder if you feel me too
But I am sure you are thinking of someone new

I'll be watching you on my screen
Your pretty smile your voice serene
My favorite person that I know
Why do you always have to go?

Those lovely eyes
Mesmerize
We were just friends
Believe in lies

I don't regret
You grew on me
I wish that we still had time to be

A fireball
A shock grenade
Everybody is so afraid
Of what we can do
Me and you
But it ain't true
Fuck it, is it true?

And now nothing makes sense
So you can find me

I am over here on the fence
Baby
I lost you
Now you lost me

So farewell
Let things be
I bid you adieu
Be happy

I think I will go
For a walk
Or a run
At the park

Pick some berries
Build a fire
In my backyard
When it's dark

Drink my coffee everyday
Create my monsters while stories play
Read my books
Stay offline
Tell myself that I'll be fine

Write my songs
Go on tour
Why do I still do this for?

I stare at myself in the mirror
I think I'm seeing me much clear

And I hope you are living in harmony
With your charming prince who I couldn't be
Though I never thought that we were wrong
I always knew you'd move along

And I find myself longing just to be alone

You're an exception
Baby
Otherworldly
Lovely Fairy

I want you
You don't need me
Thanks for riding a while on my fruitless journey

When you go away I'm not waiting for you
You never promised to stay but I wished we seen this through

I guess it was just me that I hoped you fell in too
But feelings aren't real and friendships not true

I have so much to say but my words are so few
But now you are so far away and I'm still waiting for you

The colors drip from the trees
I'll worship that ghost as I am brought my knees
I am not feeling afraid It's all my choice
I'll leave my mind in the dirt and two beautiful boys

You won't see me again
Don't hang up on me
You were my only real friend, but why not my baby?