Blame on Me

[00:02.42] Mama getting high up in the kitchen
[00:05.17] Daddy wasn't there, he was missing
[00:08.14] Nobody was there to even listen
[00:10.48] I kept all my problems and kept feelings hidden, yeah
[00:14.71] And I put the blame on me
[00:17.95] I put the blame on me
[00:20.72] I put the blame on me
[00:25.01] Only ten years old
[00:27.37] I'm already numb, yeah my heart's getting cold
[00:29.86] Saw my mama getting weaker, hurt me to my soul
[00:32.65] The only man she loved, how could he do this to his girl
[00:36.01] He put that pistol to her head
[00:37.77] I swear he coulda shot her dead
[00:39.13] Man that liquor made him evil
[00:42.09] I swear that man ain't had no reason
[00:44.64] That s- just turned him to a demon, yeah
[00:47.92] Fast forward a couple years
[00:49.38] I done turned twelve
[00:50.69] Living life one hell to the next hell
[00:53.60] I got cousins touching me inappropriately
[00:56.61] And don't nobody believe me when I tell
[00:59.53] When you learn that shit heals, ain't no one to look up to
[01:02.42] And the same people hurting you telling they love you
[01:05.21] Before too long you start believing
[01:08.49] That maybe you're the reason, yeah
[01:12.17] Mama getting high up in the kitchen
[01:15.06] Daddy wasn't there, he was missing
[01:18.15] Nobody was there to even listen
[01:20.51] I kept all my problems and kept feelings hidden, yeah
[01:24.57] And I put the blame on me
[01:27.61] I put the blame on me, yeah
[01:30.52] I put the blame on me
[01:34.54] Age fourteen, left East St. Louis
[01:37.34] New drama but I really ain't new to it
[01:40.12] Hear 'em laughing at lunchtime and I'm the joke
[01:43.16] Black and white was too black for the white folks
[01:45.88] I can't do nothing 'bout my face
[01:47.43] Feeling all outta place
[01:49.06] Over something I can't control
[01:51.66] F- is wrong with these people?
[01:54.39] Or is it something wrong with me though? Yeah
[01:57.83] Age sixteen, life's still mean
[02:00.57] Mama fell hard, needed rescuing
[02:03.28] She got a new man, he told her simply
[02:06.35] She could stay with him long as she don't bring me
[02:08.86] I guess she had to make a choice
[02:10.70] Did what she had to do
[02:12.37] Chose him over her own kid
[02:14.94] I don't know what would make her do this
[02:17.50] Had to be something I did, ooh
[02:21.77] Mama getting high up in the kitchen (Eh)
[02:24.96] Daddy wasn't there, he was missing (Eh)
[02:27.82] Nobody was there to even listen (Yeah, yeah)
[02:30.11] Kept all my problems and kept feelings hidden, yeah (Ooh) yeah
[02:34.36] And I put the blame on me (Blame on me)
[02:37.42] I put the blame on me (Ooh) yeah
[02:40.37] I put the blame on me (Blame on me)
[02:44.31] I was homeless 'till I turned eighteen
[02:47.16] Started living with a man I was dating
[02:50.08] Last thing on my mind was graduating
[02:52.99] All about survival and money-making
[02:56.07] I would sing to escape my reality
[02:58.60] Just tryna play the cards God dealt me
[03:01.54] Posted myself singing a song 'cause it was on my heart
[03:05.01] When it went viral I was working in Walmart
[03:09.21] I got a new start
[03:11.19] Taking my pain, turning it into art
[03:14.20] Turning bad times into hot sounds
[03:16.96] For the first time where I belong
[03:19.96] Twenty now, making moves, making money now
[03:26.46] Rainy days hella sunny now
[03:29.25] But every now and then I think about
[03:31.49] Mama getting high up in the kitchen (Eh)
[03:34.72] Daddy wasn't there, he was missing (Eh)
[03:37.53] Nobody was there to even listen (Yeah, yeah)
[03:40.13] I kept all my problems and kept feelings hidden, yeah (Ooh) yeah
[03:44.09] And I put the blame on me (Blame on me)
[03:47.33] I put the blame on me (Ooh) yeah
[03:50.10] I put the blame on me (Blame on me)
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