This Selfish Love

In the small place when I'm feeling up to it
When I'm not choking up, not completely fucking it
Maybe it's best not to know what's next?
When the cheap retreat from the August breeze
Could blow me off my feet

Don't call it a keepsake
When none of us are brave

Goddamn I'd like to spend some time
A bigger slice of you in my selfish life
I know there's years
Don't count them up
There is nothing but this selfish love
That matters much

I watched all the lines
Around your beautiful eyes
Getting deep with laugh marks and smile lines
Because this is more than I deserve
I can't love myself so I'll love you enough
To try and find some worth

Don't call it a keepsake
When none of us are brave

Goddamn I'd like to spend some time
A bigger slice of you in my selfish life
I know there's years
Don't count them up
There is nothing but this selfish love
That matters much

Don't call it a keepsake
When none of us are brave
Just hold me for my sake