Warpaint

Every morning when I wake up
A couple seconds go by
Where I can't remember
That my heart is broken
And I can't feel the pain inside
Suddenly it fucking hits me
I am a loser
A loner
A weirdo
When no one on the planet gets me
It's breakfast time
I need whiskey
These drugs don't even
Get me high anymore (High anymore)
I am so bad at goodbyes
That it just isn't worth
Saying "Hi" anymore
Live by the sword
Die by the sword!
Livе by the ring
Die by divorce!
I'd rathеr lie by the shore
'Til the undertow grabs me
And pulls with the mightiest force
And I'm writing a portrait about my life
I've been so frightened and tortured
Confined by the corners
Inside of my mind
It's so violent and morbid
I'm saying goodbye
It's my final performance
I'm leaving, goodbye
It's over, I'm done
I no longer have the will to run

Maybe I should blow
My fuckin' brains out with a gun
Go 'head quit on me and walk away
I guess we're done
All my tears just washed
The warpaint right up off my face
Freefall off the planet
Freeze to death in outer space
I hope that help is on the way
Stranded in the ocean
I've been drowning now for days
If someone finds me
Maybe they will throw me down a rope
I wrap it 'round my neck
And let it go
So I can choke
Maybe I should blow
My fuckin' brains out with a gun
Go 'head quit on me and walk away
I guess we're done
All my tears just washed
The warpaint right up off my face
Freeze to death in outer space

Broken from shame
I took a razor and opened a vein
I am so numb
Didn't notice the pain
We could not settle our differences
Because we both are the same
Traces of blood
In the snow and the rain
I'm so fuckin' hopeless
Vultures are circling me
While I wrote this
I'm losing my grip
And I'm close to insane
I know that you picture
The future without me
I know that you think
You'll be truthfully happy
I know that you think
There is probably somebody
Better for you
So just take our fuckin' future
Shred it in two
Extinguish my flames when sparks fly
A flower can't grow
Under a dark sky
Every time I feel my heart die (Heart die)
I make my art
Cry and I'm (Art cry and I'm, art cry and I'm)

Maybe I should blow
My fuckin' brains out with a gun
Go 'head quit on me and walk away
I guess we're done
All my tears just washed
The warpaint right up off my face
Freefall off the planet
Freeze to death in outer space
I hope that help is on the way
Stranded in the ocean
I've been drowning now for days
If someone finds me
Maybe they will throw me down a rope
I wrap it 'round my neck and let it go
So I can choke

I swear to fuckin' God
Sometimes I feel like
I am just a victim of my own psyche
I swear to fuckin' God
That every single day
I try to tell myself I don't like me
You ain't gotta leave the house today
Fuck seeing people
Fuck seeing the sun
Deep on the inside
My feelings are numb
And I hold in the smoke
'Til it eats through my lungs
And you looking at a person
That's so damaged demonic
I need a glass of ocean water
And an anti-psychotic
And I don't care about the money
And the fame or the commas
I fantasized about the day
That I can let go with the drama
That's what's squeezing out my lungs
That put calluses on my hard feet
All that agonyhas been
Calcified in my heartbeat
Battle on
We went from being sinners in Babylon
And now we at the end of the halcyon
I never asked to exist
How the fuck could I feel passion for this?
If I am not scared to death
Why the fuck am I so scared
To taking an actual risk?
There's so much love
And compassion inside me
Instead of attacking
And fighting my actual enemies
I'd rather smash through the bricks
Until I crack both my fists

Maybe I should blow
My fuckin' brains out with a gun
Go 'head quit on me and walk away
I guess we're done
All my tears just washed
The warpaint right up off my face
Freefall off the planet
Freeze to death in outer space
I hope that help is on the way
Stranded in the ocean
I've been drowning now for days
If someone finds me
Maybe they will throw me down a rope
I wrap it 'round my neck
And let it go, so I can—