Feel S**t (feat. Jelly Roll)

First I breathe in the smoke, then I exhale slow
Till there's nothing else left but the ashes
From all this weed I blow to all these drinks I pour
There ain't nothing else left but the ashes
I feel like I don't want to feel shit (I don't want to feel shit)
I feel like I don't want to feel shit (I don't want to feel shit)
I feel like I don't want to feel shit (I don't want to feel shit)
I feel like I don't want to feel shit (I don't want to feel shit)
And I can't be sober when I'm alone
A hundred missed calls in my phone
I'm havin' withdrawals, leave me alone
Leave me alone, I feel it in my bones, I hide it all inside

I question myself, am I runnin' from something?
I put in the work, went from nothing to something
I still gotta deal with these fucked up assumptions
I'm drunk when in public, still chuggin' and numbin'
I was at rock bottom and I cried for help
So I had to take a break just to find myself
Never been to heaven, spent some time in hell
Inside my shell, revenge what I'm tryna smell
I know it's all my fault,I'm the one to blame
Instead of facin' those fears, I would run away
Couldn't tell apart all the love or hate
So fuck the fame, I guess it's my drug [?]
I gotta clear my head and just hit restart
Just did 25 shows and there's 15 more
When the cycle repeats it won't get me far
So I hide my pain deep within these scars
I got everybody sayin' I deserve to win
But is it worth the regret? Is it worth the sins?
It hurts within, I'm thinkin' bout my worth again
I had to swim across the water, cause I burnt the bridge
So I try to get by, but I hide shit inside
And I act like I'm havin' the time of my life
And I can't see the darkness if I'm in the light
So if silence is golden then I'll be all right

First I breathe in the smoke, then I exhale slow
Till there's nothing else left but the ashes
From all this weed I blow to all these drinks I pour
There ain't nothing else left but the ashes
I feel like I don't want to feel shit (I don't want to feel shit)
I feel like I don't want to feel shit (I don't want to feel shit)
I feel like I don't want to feel shit (I don't want to feel shit)
I feel like I don't want to feel shit (I don't want to feel shit)

I been on the bottom with all of the maggots
I relapsed again and fell off the wagon
I guess I'm just hopin' that all of my habits
Will finally help me to deal with the baggage
I'm carryin',
This life of sin I'm thinkin' again of all of the friends
I ended up buryin', all of the dreams that I done seen perishin'
Man, it's imperative that I change the narrative
[?] is wrong, knew all along deep in my heart
I'm tryin' to fly, why does it feel like I'm dyin' to live
But at the same I'm tryin' to die?
Won't you help me lord? I know I been selfish, lord
I know I been wrong, but I feel like I been to hell before
I just pour another drink to try and take the pain away
Wonderin', is today the day that I'ma change my ways?
No amount of cocaine could ever keep me numb
From the shit that I done done and the past I'm runnin' from

First I breathe in the smoke, then I exhale slow
Till there's nothing else left but the ashes
From all this weed I blow to all these drinks I pour
There ain't nothing else left but the ashes
I feel like I don't want to feel shit (I don't want to feel shit)
I feel like I don't want to feel shit (I don't want to feel shit)
I feel like I don't want to feel shit (I don't want to feel shit)
I feel like I don't want to feel shit (I don't want to feel shit)
And I can't be sober when I'm alone
A hundred missed calls in my phone
I'm havin' withdrawals, leave me alone
Leave me alone, I feel it in my bones, I hide it all inside