Serenity

This sickness is growing and drowning me slowly
The scars of my past are what keep me from growing
Will I fall into the dark
Let it swallow me whole

Seems like I have it together then I unravel in the blink of an eye
This silence is deafening, and it feels like I am

(Seconds from the end, a blinding light surrounds me)

Serenity
Peaceful for the moment
Find beauty in the clarity
From bitter thoughts that follow me

I am so afraid to swallow my pride
Look you in the face and tell you I'm not really doing fine
Will my cries for help be heard or will they fall to the wayside
(Back and forth between the highs and lows)
I never thought I'd feel so fucking miserable

Chewed up and spit out by my self loathing actions
Hanging on by a thread just to get through the day

I feel free surrounded in
Serenity
Peaceful for the moment
Find beauty in the clarity
From bitter thoughts that follow me
This burden I hold is heavy
The price to pay is all my own
I'm lost, but at what fucking cost?
This pain I hold is here to stay

Hanging on by a thread
Go