These Drugs
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๐ Lyrics
I don't wanna do drugs anymore
If you saw me through the eyes of a bathroom stall
Your skin would crawl, I'm high
But I am not a sycophant for a good time
I only wanted to escape my mind
For one night, know what happiness feels like
But the nightmare I'm ignoring is darker in the morning
It's a Band-Aid on a broken arm
It's a siren sounding out alarm
A fucked-up version of self-harm
And it's louder than a cry for help
When I destroy my mental health
Because I don't respect myself
Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
All I ever do is cry
Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
All I ever do is cry
I don't wanna go to bed alone
So I let another stranger take me home
I drink to numb the pain
And you would do it too if you were sharin' my brain
Everybody that I love gets hurt
And I'm learning to believe that I just deserve
The demons I'm ignoring
And the regret in the morning
It's a fucking domino effect
A prison cell inside my head
A trauma that I can't forget
And it's louder than a cry for help
When I destroy my mental health
Because I fuckin' hate myself
Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
All I ever do is cry
Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
All I ever do is
Cry, cry
I only ever
Cry, cry
I only ever
Cry, cry
I only ever
Cry, cry
I only ever
Damned if I do and bored if I don't
And I should get clean again but I won't
I told you that I don't need help
Because I lie to myself
I'm damned if I do and bored if I don't
And I should get clean again but I won't
I wanna be someone else
Because I'm scared of myself
Sometimes I'm scared of myself
Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
All I ever do is cry
Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
All I ever do is
Cry, cry
I only ever
Cry, cry
I only ever
Cry, cry
I only ever
Cry, cry
I only ever cry
If you saw me through the eyes of a bathroom stall
Your skin would crawl, I'm high
But I am not a sycophant for a good time
I only wanted to escape my mind
For one night, know what happiness feels like
But the nightmare I'm ignoring is darker in the morning
It's a Band-Aid on a broken arm
It's a siren sounding out alarm
A fucked-up version of self-harm
And it's louder than a cry for help
When I destroy my mental health
Because I don't respect myself
Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
All I ever do is cry
Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
All I ever do is cry
I don't wanna go to bed alone
So I let another stranger take me home
I drink to numb the pain
And you would do it too if you were sharin' my brain
Everybody that I love gets hurt
And I'm learning to believe that I just deserve
The demons I'm ignoring
And the regret in the morning
It's a fucking domino effect
A prison cell inside my head
A trauma that I can't forget
And it's louder than a cry for help
When I destroy my mental health
Because I fuckin' hate myself
Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
All I ever do is cry
Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
All I ever do is
Cry, cry
I only ever
Cry, cry
I only ever
Cry, cry
I only ever
Cry, cry
I only ever
Damned if I do and bored if I don't
And I should get clean again but I won't
I told you that I don't need help
Because I lie to myself
I'm damned if I do and bored if I don't
And I should get clean again but I won't
I wanna be someone else
Because I'm scared of myself
Sometimes I'm scared of myself
Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
All I ever do is cry
Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
All I ever do is
Cry, cry
I only ever
Cry, cry
I only ever
Cry, cry
I only ever
Cry, cry
I only ever cry
โฑ๏ธ Synced Lyrics
[00:10.43] I don't wanna do drugs anymore
[00:12.45] If you saw me through the eyes of a bathroom stall
[00:15.05] Your skin would crawl, I'm high
[00:17.49] But I am not a sycophant for a good time
[00:20.05] I only wanted to escape my mind
[00:22.83] For one night, know what happiness feels like
[00:25.53] But the nightmare I'm ignoring is darker in the morning
[00:30.42] It's a Band-Aid on a broken arm
[00:33.80] It's a siren sounding out alarm
[00:36.42] A fucked-up version of self-harm
[00:41.18] And it's louder than a cry for help
[00:44.42] When I destroy my mental health
[00:46.70] Because I don't respect myself
[00:51.25] Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
[00:58.89] All I ever do is cry
[01:02.13] Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
[01:09.27] All I ever do is cry
[01:14.91] I don't wanna go to bed alone
[01:17.04] So I let another stranger take me home
[01:19.70] I drink to numb the pain
[01:21.72] And you would do it too if you were sharin' my brain
[01:24.87] Everybody that I love gets hurt
[01:27.45] And I'm learning to believe that I just deserve
[01:29.98] The demons I'm ignoring
[01:32.42] And the regret in the morning
[01:35.05] It's a fucking domino effect
[01:38.37] A prison cell inside my head
[01:40.96] A trauma that I can't forget
[01:45.32] And it's louder than a cry for help
[01:48.67] When I destroy my mental health
[01:51.12] Because I fuckin' hate myself
[01:55.02] Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
[02:03.47] All I ever do is cry
[02:06.65] Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
[02:13.92] All I ever do is
[02:17.46] Cry, cry
[02:19.64] I only ever
[02:22.45] Cry, cry
[02:25.29] I only ever
[02:27.50] Cry, cry
[02:30.35] I only ever
[02:32.60] Cry, cry
[02:35.58] I only ever
[02:37.42] Damned if I do and bored if I don't
[02:40.21] And I should get clean again but I won't
[02:42.95] I told you that I don't need help
[02:45.37] Because I lie to myself
[02:47.85] I'm damned if I do and bored if I don't
[02:50.52] And I should get clean again but I won't
[02:53.18] I wanna be someone else
[02:55.66] Because I'm scared of myself
[03:00.52] Sometimes I'm scared of myself
[03:08.18] Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
[03:15.72] All I ever do is cry
[03:18.84] Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
[03:26.09] All I ever do is
[03:29.50] Cry, cry
[03:32.49] I only ever
[03:34.51] Cry, cry
[03:37.58] I only ever
[03:39.95] Cry, cry
[03:42.77] I only ever
[03:44.95] Cry, cry
[03:47.94] I only ever cry
[00:12.45] If you saw me through the eyes of a bathroom stall
[00:15.05] Your skin would crawl, I'm high
[00:17.49] But I am not a sycophant for a good time
[00:20.05] I only wanted to escape my mind
[00:22.83] For one night, know what happiness feels like
[00:25.53] But the nightmare I'm ignoring is darker in the morning
[00:30.42] It's a Band-Aid on a broken arm
[00:33.80] It's a siren sounding out alarm
[00:36.42] A fucked-up version of self-harm
[00:41.18] And it's louder than a cry for help
[00:44.42] When I destroy my mental health
[00:46.70] Because I don't respect myself
[00:51.25] Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
[00:58.89] All I ever do is cry
[01:02.13] Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
[01:09.27] All I ever do is cry
[01:14.91] I don't wanna go to bed alone
[01:17.04] So I let another stranger take me home
[01:19.70] I drink to numb the pain
[01:21.72] And you would do it too if you were sharin' my brain
[01:24.87] Everybody that I love gets hurt
[01:27.45] And I'm learning to believe that I just deserve
[01:29.98] The demons I'm ignoring
[01:32.42] And the regret in the morning
[01:35.05] It's a fucking domino effect
[01:38.37] A prison cell inside my head
[01:40.96] A trauma that I can't forget
[01:45.32] And it's louder than a cry for help
[01:48.67] When I destroy my mental health
[01:51.12] Because I fuckin' hate myself
[01:55.02] Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
[02:03.47] All I ever do is cry
[02:06.65] Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
[02:13.92] All I ever do is
[02:17.46] Cry, cry
[02:19.64] I only ever
[02:22.45] Cry, cry
[02:25.29] I only ever
[02:27.50] Cry, cry
[02:30.35] I only ever
[02:32.60] Cry, cry
[02:35.58] I only ever
[02:37.42] Damned if I do and bored if I don't
[02:40.21] And I should get clean again but I won't
[02:42.95] I told you that I don't need help
[02:45.37] Because I lie to myself
[02:47.85] I'm damned if I do and bored if I don't
[02:50.52] And I should get clean again but I won't
[02:53.18] I wanna be someone else
[02:55.66] Because I'm scared of myself
[03:00.52] Sometimes I'm scared of myself
[03:08.18] Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
[03:15.72] All I ever do is cry
[03:18.84] Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
[03:26.09] All I ever do is
[03:29.50] Cry, cry
[03:32.49] I only ever
[03:34.51] Cry, cry
[03:37.58] I only ever
[03:39.95] Cry, cry
[03:42.77] I only ever
[03:44.95] Cry, cry
[03:47.94] I only ever cry