An Idiot

I have lived a hundred lives
And I have died a dozen times
But the reaper hasn't caught me yet
Though his scythe is often at my neck

And I have learned a trick or two
Though I've forgotten quite a few
And might have told a hundred lies
Twice as many half as true

Oh I have been an idiot
Missing some key ingredient
And waiting as I fail to rise
Never guessing what it meant

I lived adrift on luck and looks
'Till hungry hearts struck hard and took
And made afraid of what I'd done
My skills were nil, my friends were none

I could not trust my empty mind
These stolen holes of space and time
The faces, newly strange, I'd find
None of them resembling mine

Oh I have been an idiot
Missing some key ingredient
And waiting as I fail to rise
Never asking what it meant

I barely cared, and rarely tried
To find some reason I should fight
But in my hand and at my side
You, my heart, my arm did guide

For I had been your long lost twin
Closer than a second skin
And now I am alone again
Wiser than I've never been

Oh I have been an idiot
Missing some key ingredient
But now I know how I will rise
Oh how on earth could I forget?
Knowing you has made me wise
Now I am not an idiot!