From Hotel 1105 With Love

We both been tired of being tied, wiping tears from my eyes, and I felt rage Rushing through my veins, it's hard to keep quiet,
Almost thought you'd never lie, but it's some things I tried to hide,
Made a promise to myself this year, we both defeat the ties,
Get back right with God, embrace the flaws that I always often dodge
Cause when you look into the mirror, you see past all facades
I promise to myself I always will be honest, to this love
Then self-love grows, when I strengthen beyond it,
To the book of love, my life's goal,
Focused on this diamond road
I pray one day we find peace, the peace to breathe, relieve the lows,
I'm lower than I've ever known, I pack my bags, I'm leaving home,
Snatch the keys, you grasp the rings, then we proceed of doing wrong

1105 the suite of hope, we both been letting go, and it's been pain
That I've been through, so it's hard to love and cope,
Spilled my pain on other women, that was two weeks in a row
I'm guessing we moving on, no happy home
I'm losing what I've known, how could I stay afloat?
What if I let you go, it's things I'd never know, will God let us grow?
This love is all I know, and we gotta let it show
And if our hearts can grow, then we can't let this go, go

I apologize, since the day I made you mine
I'm taking full accountability of the ways I made you feel inside
My tone of voice, the lust, my foolish ways, not valuing your trust
We both been wrong, but it's a must, that I lead and I construct this home
And get us out this rut

Man I hate it when we fuss, take our time, we can't give up,
Therapy sessions could plant the seeds for ways
To change the way we trust
I'm on my momma line, I'm up, my granny ain't alive, I'm crushed
My heart been dire, I wanted us,
It's on my mind, and I'ma run, swimming in circles
Hurt could come in verbals, praying for the sun
I haven't been rhyming, it's been months, I've been crying, but I ain't done

I'ma keep shining, my time will come
It's a reason we alive, we gon' survive, I love us, 1105, with love

Can I share my love?
It's as sweet as the sun
Or the taste of cinnamon in St Tropez
You can't run, away
From the bad times and vacate the pain away
I just need the time to show you, rinsing in the island shade
Vanilla iced lattes, swirled with a Carmel glaze
Let's talk, let's elevate, let's learn your heart rate
My heart been dark lately, you walk, let's talk grace, our faith ain't far away

Let's change our life's musical, hotels with love, fly with me, we can run
In the botanical gardens, park it, valet, here we come
Can't spend this winter time alone, feel like McAllister, I'm home

Let's spend this Christmas time away and escape the Rome
Grateful that you did pick up the phone, I was wrong

I've been searching for your love, beyond the unturned stones, and I prayed To reveal us, reflecting and valuing trust,
1105 is about us, the love that we made, commitment that November came

I was afraid for a change to dismiss my old ways
That's what I alway needed
I had to find the meaning of my self worth and motives
It ain't about achievement, materialistic, I refuse to be
I know my soul always needed cleaning, when I was low
I still knew that I was golden, with a different meaning
Within this lifetime and soon, I'ma see the season

I see the sand up out the gloom and I can't never leave it,
And I've been destined and I'm proving, I'ma live and breathe it,
To see my dreams and the world, I wanna achieve it,
What's the good in a man if he can't never lead and I got issues

I just wanna be, and figure out this path alone to trust me
To reap the benefits of God's fruit and I can see
What's missing in this film, is the work to love me
I can see God's planning for me, now, now I'm free