I Hope Its Worth It

I hope its worth it
I hope you find what your looking for
I hope your happy in life
Gave you my all but you needed more
Doing me wrong wasnt right
I hate to say im not alright
But truth is that im not alright
How can i not give it up when you was my reason to fight
I cant believe all the lies that you told me
Said that you loved me but you never showed me
Holding me back but at least that you hold me
I want you to heal even though that you broke me
Looking for love in the place of resentment
I cant believe that i thought you was different
Told you i loved you i really meant it
You told me you loved me but you was pretending
I hope its worth all of the drinking and al of the parties you go to
I hope that its worth when your laying down and got no one to hold you
I gave you my love but you never loved me all of the ways
You were supposed to
I hate who you are but its hard to let go
Because im in love with the old you
I wish you knew how much pain that you caused me
Girl in my dreams but this shit is exhausting
I have been fighting and crying and trying
Im tired of the lying im tired of the problems
I remember when i met you our love that we had was so special
I done everything that i could to see that little smile
I tried to impress you
I think about everything I try to forget the lies
I could see everything when i look deep in your eyes
Cause i lose myself when i see you
All of my stars are aligned
Now matter how dirty you did me
Im happy we met and you came in my life
And i cant believe that you hurt me
I pray to God your not hurting
Just know its okay that you hurt me
I dont want you carrying burdens
I hate even saying i love you
I know im the farthest from perfect
I hate that you threw us away
But if its for you i hope that its worth it
This isnt the lyics but im so proud of you