To My Father

To my father
You must save me
I feel soulless, I feel crazy
Call my mama
Said I'm hurtin
But she don't know how the fuck it feels
When the devil's workin'

Been talkin' to God
I hope that you're real
I'm praying I feel somethin'
You can try to detach the problems you have
I promise they still comin'
What if the problem is me?
Don't wanna leave
I'm praying you let go
I'm totally fine with being alone
I told you I really am that numb
So what do I do when loving on you
Is never enough?
I try to be patient with loving myself
I don't give a fuck

So what do I do when I'm drunk
And feel like just taking my life?
I promise that you wouldn't bat me an eye
You wouldn't care if I died

To my father, you must save me
I feel soulless
I feel crazy
Call my mama
Said I'm hurtin'
But she don't know how the fuck it feels
When the devil's workin'

I feel the sky crashing down over me
Why should I live when it hurts just to be
Me, or who I thought i was
Spent too much time drinking all this liquor
Now I only like me when I'm drunk
Its fucked up I know
The only name i write in my own Death Note
Is me
Suicidal thoughts, broken tendencies
Killing isn't easy
Something that I learned nothing you could teach

If my god is real listen to me speak
I really need your help, bout to kill myself
Falling to the ground, in my tears I drown
Can you hear me now?
Blood on the floor, cuts on myself
Fucking hate myself, try to change myself
Don't need fucking help, nothing fucking helps

With my brain
Please help me solve the riddle
It's causing all my pain

To my father
You must save me
I feel soulless I feel crazy
Call my mama, said I'm hurtin'
But she don't know how the fuck it feels when the devil's workin

I feel the sky crashing down over me
Why should I live when it hurts just to be me?