They Never Found Me

I can't bring myself to seek the truth any more
Don't ask me how I feel
I'm neither up nor down
Who's keeping score anyhow?

I can't face you fully or look you in the eye these days
Don't think that I don't want to
But my heart is sore
I'm looking down and down I go

I know two worlds
And I don't know which is real
So I choose each word
And the darkness I conceal

Ah, oh! Where did he go?
High then low I'm still searching for my soul
So near but they never found me
And I'll wait a while in my silent purgatory

I can't bring myself to say I love you any more
Don't think that I don't want to
But on these words
I'm choking now somehow

I try to hold you but my arms are thin these days
Don't think I should be leaned on
This beam's been brought down
And down I go once more

I know two worlds
And I don't know which is real
So I write this down
And hope the light I can reveal