MERRY GO ROUND

I tell my soul to feel alive again
Some days, I wish I could pretend
So sick of wakin' up in the mornings
I find myself prayin' to God again
I don't know if I hear a friend
'Cause it's just me, doin' the talkin'
I'm stuck inside this merry go round
Don't know if I wanna get out
What's so wrong with bein' honest?
'Cause I drink too much, I think too much
I barely like myself enough
I say, "I'm fine", but I hurt inside
I fall in love, I fuck it up
Then wonder what the fuck it was
It's all a lie, and I'm terrified
All my days feelin' like weeks again
I find myself spirallin'
With every turn, I lose a piece of my heart
Stuck inside this merry go round
Don't know if I wanna get out
What's so wrong with bein' honest?
'Cause I drink too much, I think too much
I barely like myself enough
I say, "I'm fine", but I hurt inside
I fall in love, I fuck it up
Then wonder what the fuck it was
It's all a lie, and I'm terrified
And I'm on my knees, surrounded
Just underneath, I'm drownin'
And it's all a lie, and I'm terrified
I drink too much, I think too much
I barely like myself enough
I say, "I'm fine", but I hurt inside
I fall in love, I fuck it up
Then wonder what the fuck it was
It's all a lie, and I'm terrified