poison

I, I'm holding my breath
Awaiting my death
And it feels so close to me
I, I'm full of regret
In over my head
And I've got no remedy
I don't wanna cry when I'm thinking too much
But I don't know a life where it isn't too much
And not enough
I'm in the water
Far from the surface
Fighting is useless
How can I do this?
It's getting harder
Finding a purpose
Inviting the voices
I'm my own poison
Lost, away from it all
Who's there to call
When I'm my own enemy?
I don't wanna cry when I'm thinking too much
But I don't know a life where it isn't too much
But still never enough
I'm in the water
Far from the surface
Fighting is useless
How can I do this?
It's getting harder
Finding a purpose
Inviting the voices
I'm my own poison
I'm in the water
Holding my own hand
But I know it's pointless
I'm my own poison