Nexus

I've given up hope in a life
I've given up most of my life

I've given up hope in a life
Where people could say I'm living it right
I've given up most of my life
To the hopes and the dreams once seemed so bright
I've given up

When they all burnout, in the end someday
Gotta catch that heat, that is sent my way
Anxious by night, feel these eyes glaze
Feel peace by way of the piece I blaze
(I've given up most of my life)
Of the piece I blaze
Please fuck off, Imma need my space
(I've given up most of my life)
In a king-sized cage
Just found out, had to leave my race
So I'm running and running and running and running
But I don't even know if I could see the end coming
And I don't even know if it would really mean something or nothing
But one thing I do know, is we go along
Til' these feelings are gone
Til' nothing else matters and we all belong to the dirt
Only thing real is a persons own work
On his personal worth and it hurts
When you look at the past and you cringe at the fact
That those moments are gone and they not coming back
And you feel like an ass, for believing in half
Of the shit that you have, so you sit and rehash
Instead of working on through
But the truth is it's useless to do this, when you
Keep on searching for worth in a perfect excuse
I assure you, I'm learning to burn these issues

I've given up hope in a life
Where people could say I'm living it right
I've given up most of my life
To the hopes and the dreams once seemed so bright
I've given up hope in a life
Where people could say I'm living it right
I've given up most of my life
To the hopes and the dreams once seemed soo bright
I've given up

(I've given up)
On everything I've ever started
It's apart of every heartache
Ripped apart at every thought I get disheartened, then discard it
Unapologetic, with a fetish for the endless
Inner sentence of repentance
In a sense, it's innocent
I never meant to be defensive but I lack the right incentive
So (I've given up)
What I used to be
Pretending that I'm usually a class act, but I backtrack
Til' given a moment to grasp at the world that I've been holdin'
Getting molded to a last laugh
(Most of my life)
Steady stay dreamin', ain't sleepin'
Days sneakin' by, vacant and high
Is it a vacation or life?
Face complacencies, lies
At a pace that debases the patience inside
(Most of my life)
I've been seeing the reasons that I should be feeling alright
But it's like I'm inside my own mind and it might just implode
Couple nights in a row living like I don't know
I've given up hope in a life
Where people could say, I'm living it right
Where people could say I'm living it right
I've given up most of my life
To the hopes and the dreams once seemed so bright
I've given up