Ely Waves & Seon - it's hard to be me prod. Beautiful Beats

[00:00.30] I carry myself
[00:03.75] Through all of these memories, but
[00:07.15] It's getting harder just to be me (Yeah)
[00:10.25] Somebody save me (Ah)
[00:14.35] It's like everyday is a different struggle
[00:15.88] Young man, but I found a hustle
[00:17.52] E-L-Y, that's a piece of the puzzle
[00:19.42] I'm really blessed, but I'm still stressed
[00:21.23] How I lost my muscle at a young age
[00:23.28] Changed me, I had blind rage
[00:24.93] Saw the world as a still beige
[00:27.00] Seemed to lose it's color
[00:28.52] Self esteem, in an empty gutter
[00:29.73] Was praying for flooding that never would cover the losses I took
[00:31.98] Rather just die than admit to my family cause they would discover
[00:34.97] The path that I took
[00:36.05] Used drugs as a cover, to cover the fact
[00:38.39] That I fucked up myself to a point where I'd never recover
[00:40.23] Got lost in the lust and I fell for a lover, that never would love me
[00:42.77] The way that I needed
[00:43.76] Broken and pleading for someone to save me but no one would save me
[00:46.35] I thought that she would
[00:48.23] But I ended up hurting somebody that can't be replaced
[00:49.85] Now when I look at life, I'm thinking like what a disgrace I made
[00:52.94] Just dig me a grave and bury me deep, at least six feet
[00:55.80] Cause I don't wanna breathe, and I don't wanna be
[00:58.26] The person I turned out to be in end
[01:00.07] Now I'm focused on turning the page and
[01:01.51] Becoming a person that I could be proud of
[01:03.08] Got tired of telling myself that I'm not it
[01:04.65] So I gotta be it, before I would peace this
[01:07.31] Yeah, making my peace
[01:09.04] I'm making my peace
[01:09.71] Before I would peace this
[01:10.77] Yeah, making my peace
[01:12.49] Before it all tears me to pieces
[01:13.49] I carry myself
[01:17.49] Through all of these memories, but
[01:20.92] It's getting harder just to be me
[01:24.33] Somebody save me
[01:27.88] Man I been lost for a while
[01:29.75] Struggling finding my way in this life
[01:31.94] I just forget how to smile
[01:33.50] Wonder what happened wish that I wasn't alive
[01:35.49] Lately I been in denial
[01:37.22] Saying I'm fine, running away from my mind
[01:39.48] Shit ain't been right since the trail
[01:41.45] It ain't been right since the trial
[01:42.92] They locked me for up like a year
[01:44.51] I ain't have nobody there
[01:46.22] Couldn't run like I did in the past, and I was facing all my fears
[01:48.99] Coming to terms with all that I've done
[01:52.07] All the feelings starting to flood
[01:53.35] I'm drowning alone I ran out luck
[01:55.04] I was so close to just giving it up
[01:57.11] Now I'm out but I don't feel like I'm free
[01:59.35] On a mission tryna find all my dreams
[02:00.70] To steady losing never getting no sleep
[02:02.78] I'm feeling empty getting closer to e
[02:04.46] So what do I do, and who do I be
[02:08.58] Life it been weighing me down
[02:10.04] I don't what I should think
[02:12.08] Cause I get caught in my addiction
[02:13.22] Tryna not to make a difference
[02:14.36] Wishing I could stop the sinning
[02:15.66] Knowing I can't be forgiving
[02:16.92] My whole life I'm never winning
[02:18.65] My whole life I'm never winning, for real
[02:19.95] I pray this a dream and that none of this real
[02:22.13] I'm waking up where I don't have to feel
[02:23.68] Don't have to stress and I don't have to heal
[02:25.44] I don't have to stress and I don't have to heal
[02:27.39] I carry myself
[02:31.42] Through all of these memories, but
[02:34.74] It's getting harder just to be me
[02:37.99] Somebody save me
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