Reticence

Uptight, so downright
Sinking feelings
Abandon ships in the night
So ugly
To the point of hatred
My skin crawling
Yet I feel so alive
So disgusting
So narcissistic
Your nihilism runs
Through these veins
Caustic burning
The eye unlearning
Provocateur flirting
Beyond what's wrong or right

So beautiful
But you don't know it
But given time
We all take time
We are...