The Fullness of My Being

[00:30.64] How many years have I spent aloom?
[00:33.30] Decades weaving, all my time consumed
[00:35.74] My head swim with melodies, perfumes
[00:38.42] Obsessing what they'd etch on my tomb
[00:40.77] The sleepless nights staring at the moon
[00:43.41] Green smoke crawling out my mouth in plumes
[00:45.83] Let's drop to the edges of my gloom
[00:48.22] Dreaming states in the vanities of youth
[00:50.83] I am the other, the lowest
[00:53.41] Imposter syndrome, always forced to prove
[00:55.84] I am a lover, a poet
[00:58.58] Grander ego gave me more to lose
[01:01.60] I should have known
[01:03.88] After all this time in grace
[01:06.29] I was so close to serenity
[01:11.85] And I should have felt
[01:14.14] While struggling for peace
[01:16.59] I was only ever fighting, torturing me
[01:21.84] My own worst enemy
[01:24.01] Like trash
[01:26.89] What y'all ain't answer? None
[01:29.25] All the time spent scheming
[01:30.62] I couldn't hear my soul scream
[01:33.82] I murder fantasy
[01:37.24] What at stake?
[01:39.48] The only way to follow is blindly
[01:44.04] My eyes are open
[01:46.48] Bound back to loyalty
[01:49.04] My eyes are open
[01:51.44] I made a nightmare of my dream
[01:54.19] I was so close to serenity
[01:59.49] I was only ever fighting me
[02:04.95] I should have known
[02:06.84] After all this time in grace
[02:09.71] I was so close to serenity
[02:15.03] And I should have felt
[02:17.36] While struggling for peace
[02:19.75] I was only ever fighting, torturing me
[02:24.25] Now that I've stopped to rest
[02:25.60] I've gained clarity
[02:26.96] My perception widening
[02:29.30] All the frustrations that I felt
[02:30.99] Clinging so tightly to identity
[02:33.26] Was a dissonance of thought
[02:34.88] War between action and belief
[02:36.98] A house can't serve two masters
[02:39.52] For years, I chose so carelessly
[02:41.72] The work became an idol
[02:43.37] I offered praise up tirelessly
[02:45.96] Once I cast it from me
[02:47.04] My suffering spirit found harmony
[02:50.26] As I forsake my false sense of self
[02:52.31] I embrace the fullness of my being
[02:55.26] The fullness of my being
[02:57.98] Fullness of my being
[03:01.46] The fullness of my being!
[03:05.75] I should have known
[03:07.53] After all this time in grace
[03:10.24] I was so close to serenity
[03:15.50] And I should have felt
[03:17.98] While struggling for peace
[03:20.34] I was only ever fighting, torturing me
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