VI

For as long as I remember
During stormy nights I've pictured myself on a raft
In pitch blackness in the middle of the ocean
Sky-high waves and thunder
Winds that can be felt to the bone
I battle for survival against the forces of nature
As the waves swallow me whole
I succumb... I give in
I can't see anything, but I drink, oh how I drink
My thirst is insatiable, and my body can take no more
Yet I drink till I can hold no more
What has been a lifelong dream, shall be a dream no more
As I wander into the sea
The waves are no match for my many fantasies
The cold water soothes me
The waves embrace and cradle me
To feel such warmth and comfort after so many years of torment
I want more!
I drink and I'm cradled
For once I'm loved
I drink and I drink with a maddening lust
As I'm slowly swallowed by the dark depths