Shellshocked

Like a hermit,
unfounded,
solitary but proud.
I was hiding,
behind fences,
shutting myself out.

Crossed my arm,
disarmed,
loss of self-defence.
Wouldn't fight off,
haunting memories,
crimes without a sense.

Closed my eyes,
blind folded,
images of hell.
Caught inside,
a vicious circle,
retired in my shell.

Shut my mouth,
lips sealed,
there's no need to tell.
Wouldn't share,
with you the secret,
that could break the shell.

Shellshocked!
No escape from dreaming.
Shellshocked!
There's no escape from dreaming.