Lament

As I stand beside myself
Loathing in the pain that may never be
The blinding light forces me back into the dark
My tormentor, my torturer
You reside within me for countless
But I refuse to let you slip away
Fused into the very fabric of my being
I fear I'd be lost without you
And as you claw at my throat, stealing my voice
I cannot help but feel, none of this is real
Just a voice that's manifested in my head
Carving worthless into my skin again
I bleed, the weight begins to lift
Fear is not only what you see
Behind this smiling face is suffering
Do you hear the screams inside my head
I cannot help but feel, none of this is real
Deafening for me, silent for you