Harlequin

Slow me down
Play it in reverse
How can I ever explain
That no amount of medicine
Could help me shake this curse

Disrepair
This mental hell
Apathetic to my own condition
I don't know how to feel

Thoughts aggrieved with shame
Am I the one to blame 'cause I just
Need to believe
That what I dream is what I'm seeing
Crowned in pain
And always searching for a change
That could lead me to see
Should I still believe

Oh
Well if I'm so deluded
Would it really be such a sin to believe
That I ever had a chance
At happiness or relief

The smoke and mirrors all crash down
Isolation rots me to my bones
I could never comprehend
What it's like
To feel safe in my own head

I could never comprehend
What it's like
To feel safe in my own head

Thoughts aggrieved with shame
Am I the one to blame 'cause I just
Need to believe
That what I dream is what I'm seeing
Crowned in pain
And always searching for a change
That could lead me to see
Should I still believe

Thoughts aggrieved with shame
Am I the one to blame 'cause I just
Need to be free
Should I still believe