Through The Veil

Nothing ever prepared me for this moment
nothing has led up to this ordeal
the life I knew is gone – twice over broken
and my fate it must be sealed.

How I wish I'd never seen an ocean
how I wish I'd never smelled the sea
I've never felt so powerless and broken
or less equal or less free.

Oh, but give me Nepenthe!

Every wave a jolt from mother nature
every breeze a challenge and a bait
every day a deluge or a scorching
and every single night a wait.

Something fills the air, it's all around us
as striking as a bolt out of the blue
the impact's nearly rendered us unconscious
laid a mist upon the crew

The radiance warms my soul and makes me dizzy
a hazy veil now disguises the abyss
its golden sheen is pregnant with such promise
why it fills my head with
blissful numbness
Going...
Gone.

I can never go back, I can never go back there
I can never go back, I can never go back
oblivion upon your lips – Lethe flows in your kiss
I could never go back, I could never go back there...
laudanum, make me numb!
I could never go back, I could never go back there
I could never go back, I could never go back...