Self Destructive Behavior

[00:18.52] I am amused by open wounds
[00:21.22] I pick and pick until the scar sits
[00:23.65] beautifully there then I pick again
[00:27.66] Years of experience
[00:29.45] Unbearable ennui
[00:31.68] I am a masochist and hedonist at heart
[00:36.50] My arteries and my brain make that quite apparent
[00:45.87] And if there's love
[00:50.46] It got lost in my loneliness
[00:55.25] And if there's love
[00:59.34] It got lost somewhere along the way
[01:04.22] Speaking of unfaithful ways,
[01:06.03] Mistakes that I've made
[01:07.35] My head hangs in shame for following the desires of being desired
[01:13.43] Each moment is measured in heartbeats
[01:17.74] And each piece of flesh that connects does not make me complete
[01:22.29] May my mind settle down
[01:24.93] My demons are speaking too loud
[01:31.69] I am my worst enemy
[01:36.17] (I've lost myself since I've lost you,
[01:38.75] I've lost myself)
[01:40.43] I am my worst enemy
[01:45.41] (I've lost myself, I've lost myself)
[01:49.99] Cauterize the scars I've caused you
[01:51.53] And realize that I am nothing more than a tragic experience
[02:03.77] You should always regret but never forget
[02:26.47] I hurt everyone around me
[02:30.95] I am amused by open wounds
[02:33.65] I pick and pick until the scar sits
[02:35.98] beautifully there, then I pick again
[02:39.95] Years of experience
[02:41.83] Unbearable ennui
[02:44.15] I am a masochist and hedonist at heart
[02:48.76] My arteries and my brain make that quite apparent
[02:58.22] And if there's love
[03:01.86] It got lost in my loneliness
[03:07.66] And if there's love
[03:11.93] It got lost somewhere along the way
[03:16.64] All these dreams in my head make me wish I was dead
[03:49.52] So put a gun to my head
[03:51.80] I just want to forget
[03:53.86] Underneath my skin lies a skeleton
[03:58.06] I've been dying to hang inside my closet
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