Joy-Adjacent

Five am
Still awake at five am
Laying here dazed and confused
Unsure of what I should do
What's going on in my head
Worry over things I said
Definitely bringing this to therapy
Unclear what's wrong with me

Why am I bubbling inside
Feelings I can't describe, can't figure out why
Why am I bubbling inside
No end in sight, start of my demise

Tired of running, tired of chasing
God only knows
What if this is, what I've been searching
Searching, searching for
Stop, rest, relax
Feel what you feel, no need to attack
Stop, rest, relax
Feel what you feel, no need to attack

What's wrong with me
Feel a little sunshine, mind needs to flee
Where's the toxicity
I gotta cut out to stay flourishing
Don't know why it took me so long
Don't know why it feels so wrong
Boiling my inside
This fucking light that shines bright

Why am I bubbling inside
Feelings I can't describe, can't figure out why
Why am I bubbling inside
No end in sight, start of my demise

Tired of running, tired of chasing
God only knows
What if this is, what I've been searching
Searching, searching for

Stop, rest, relax
Feel what you feel, no need to attack
Stop, rest, relax
Feel what you feel, no need to attack