Negation Consumes Affirmation

Don't look down," they said
But I could not help myself
From following the sirens' song
Into the trenches
For too long, I stared;
I noticed how this nothing exists
Between myself and everything

Or maybe I have it backwards
I just hope I have it backwards

It's not just Eros' spear digging in my ribs
That reminds me to stay alive
And it's not just hate for others
Nor paranoia forcing myself forwards
That's as if to say the light is to blame
For every shadow it leaves in its wake

I know who's to blame for this alienating madness
I will find them and tear them down from their thrones

I warn them: