PTSD

Oh my God
Am I out of luck
Tried to stop ignoring my cuts
But I couldn't get it done

Here I am, back again
In the dark feeling discontent
Chip in my armor, hole in my defense
There goes common sense
Maybe this time I'll know better
Maybe not crack under pressure
Not do this forever
Learn from my error

I don't know why, I'm terrified
Of fighting for my escape into the light
Why do I run, why do I hide
From things on my side

Things I learned in therapy
Go out the window with what I need
When trauma catches up to me
Quite the fast fucker indeed
Do I, do I, do I, do I
Even wanna get better
Will I, will I, will I, will I
Stay this way forever

When trauma finally releases
I'm there glueing back the pieces
And doing just fine, telling no lies
In denial, who's surprised
The way PTSD tries to defeat
Putting trauma on repeat
Someone sedate me
Before bad habits get unleashed

I don't know why, I'm terrified
Of fighting for my escape into the light
Why do I run, why do I hide
From things on my side

All the things I learned in therapy
Go out the window with what I need
When trauma catches up to me
Quite the fast fucker indeed
Do I, do I, do I, do I
Even wanna get better
Will I, will I, will I, will I
Stay this way forever

Oh my God
Am I out of luck
Tried to stop ignoring my cuts
But I couldn't get it done
Please, please
Stop ignoring these problem
Complete me
Time has come to solve em

Things I learned in therapy
Go out the window with what I need
When trauma catches up to me
Quite the fast fucker indeed
Do I, do I, do I, do I
Even wanna get better
Will I, will I, will I, will I
Stay this way forever