End Jam

Yesterday I
I bashed my head into a wall
To see if I still felt at all
I felt pain, then again, I feel numb
My emotions mold into one
Becoming hard to overcome
Feeling everything, still feeling nothing
Give me pain, give me something

Feel the feeling leave the skin
Feel the fire closing in
Feel the warmth and heat of sin
Taste the salt
See the mirror's unknown face
Hear the helpless cries for help
I'm on earth but deserve hell
I am scum
I am done
I am one

I don't need this
I don't need all of this guilt
My mind destroys all that is built
My brain is a wildfire of fear
I don't know where to go from here
When all my worries shape the sphere
Of a world that I have burned and killed
I had water but I lost the will

Feel the feeling leave the skin
Feel the fire closing in
Feel the warmth and heat of sin
Taste the salt
See the mirror's unknown face
Hear the helpless cries for help
I'm on earth but deserve hell
I am scum
I am done
I am one

I am
One