Despair

Pathetic shell of the man that i used to be- I pray it all ends soon
Finding comfort in the sadness ive been trapped in - Is all i can do
I'm stuck - on my knees praying, begging for more -
With no god to be found
When I finally bite the bullet, put the gun to my head
I can be safe and sound
No doubt in my mind
I've been
Left behind
I lay awake - searching for a fucking solution
My eyes cried out - awaiting my final conclusion
When all is lost
You wont find me
A worthless man
I've come to be
Waiting for change in this life of despair
I call out for help but no one is there