RETROSPECT (feat. Dexndre)

I used to recollect about the sins I said
To all my friends and
Make amends at all their ends
To make self feel good again

But matter lies beneath the skin it's in my head
I'm practicing to live again
I can't pretend
That everything is fine

FINE

EVERYTHING IS FINE

EVERYTHING IS FINE

FINE PLEASE FINE PLEASE YEAH

EVERYTHING IS FINE

Just in the way I've become
It's obnoxiously dumb
To think I was the one
To make all of the changes

Outside of my range
Watch as The New age become so deranged
Don't matter to me Won't control me
You cannot stop what is going to be

I am Carved from the wood and the dirt and the trees
Some may say I'm a plant well I planted this seed
Into my work
Knowing my worth

I see my future This shit just rehearsed
You call it impressive This image a curse
You say I'm fucked up When my feelings emerge
Seeing these entities Just my mentality darken the clouds so the more I come out of my shell

Brain is my enemy kill them it's telling me filling my brain till it swells
(yeah)

I am insane can't retain all the hate that is coursing throughout going right to my heart
I am just telling myself I'm okay but reality is that i want to be scarred
I look in the mirror i see demons dancing all over the place i don't want to be harmed
It can't be this hard

My mind is in shards
I wake up every day with thoughts that scar
I look in the mirror I see shit is moving
Keep telling yourself that shit is improving

Why do you lie on the daily there's nothing to prove to anyone it's like you are just choosing
What are these lies that I'm only pursuing
Reality is who the fuck am i fooling
Creating this sense of mind where things are okay so i don't think about removing

Look at yourself
Standing there
Are you really okay
Stare at yourself

Hiding there
Do you see your state
Look at yourself
Lying there

Inside of the grave
Stare at yourself
The demons smile they got their own way