I'm Not Fine

I'll be the best they've ever seen
I'll make them so dang proud of me
It'll take some work to get to where I need to go
But I'll be there before I know

And it's hard
And I'm tired
But I'll work
To get higher

But it seems I've lost all function in my legs, is this normal?

It's fine
I'm fine
Am I fine?
I'm sure it's fine
Am I gonna die?

I'm a wreck
I'm in a downward spin
And I don't know
What it feels like to win
But they tell me "just gotta put in the work"
You'll be fine!
And they tell me everyone falls down time to time

But no matter how hard I try
There's this little voice in my mind
And it tells me every time
That I will not be fine

I'll be the best they've ever seen
(You'll fall, you'll trip, you'll make a scene)
It'll take some work to get to where I need to go
(They're better off without you, you know)

It's hard
(Too hard)
I'll work
(Won't work)
I just gotta keep telling myself that I'll be fine

It's fine
(Not fine)
I'm fine
(Not fine)
I'm sure it's fine
(Not fine)

I'm a wreck
I'm in a downward spin
And I don't know
What it feels like to win

But they tell me
Just gotta put in the work, you'll be fine
And they tell me
Everyone falls down, once or twice

But though I try and though I reach for the sky
There's this voice that's getting
Louder in the back of my mind, saying
I'm not fine
It's screaming at me saying
I'm not fine!

I'm a mess, my life's an uphill climb
I get halfway up but I slip down every time
And I honestly don't think that I will ever be fine
Cause my head it keeps screaming you'll always be behind

And they tell me it's alright
Everyone takes their own time
But my time is moving backwards
I don't think I'll get it right

Cause I'm losing my own battles
Cannot find the will or might
Cause the little voice that's s'posed to cheer me on
Is the one I have to fight

It's fine
I'm fine
I'm sure it's fine...
(I don't think I'll ever be fine...)

Um, Alderpaw?
Are you alright?

Oh pfft, I'm fine!